I am a pretty organized person.
Dustin says I'm the most unorganized organized person he knows. He said this to me one day in the grocery store after I checked my purse, my jeans, my sleevies, and my jacket pockets for the grocery list I had spend a week making (it was in the car).
I am pretty organized. I have to be. I do a lot. A LOT. Too much. This week, I learned to say "I'm sorry, but no thank you". I felt guilty. (past tense). I got over it.
I like to stay busy but I've recently arrived at the point where I'm TOO busy. I stay up late; I sleep in; I typically take a cat nap in the afternoon... but when I'm not sleeping, I'm here, at the computer working or writing papers. I love my job. I love being a student. But, I've taken on a bit too much 'other' lately. So, I finally passed on something. Yeah, it cost me money. But, man, do I have peace of mind. That's worth way more.
This slowly began this week. Somehow Dustin and I both ended up sitting at the piano and I crudely plunked out the one song that I know. I took lessons a lot when I was little (I never practiced though...oops...). I realized that I want to learn how to play again. But, alas, no time.
We have a treadmill. An expensive treadmill... I used to run miles daily. I'm over that, but I would like to start using it to walk. But- no time to use it.
I blog. I'm a sloppy blogger. I don't edit my pics; I don't proofread. I often remember things I meant to say at a random 4 am when a cat wakes me up. Once again... no time.
This should have hit me earlier. The first time I went to my acupuncturist he told me I was so tense and anxious that I should have stomach trouble (please, I don't have time for that!). Then, he did the treatment, dimmed the lights, and told me to relax as he shut the door. Twenty minutes later, I was still all tensed up in the recliner with needles in my arms. I had to talk myself into chilling out. It wasn't because of the needles.. it was because I didn't know what to do with myself with NOTHING TO DO!
So, this week, I finally passed on something. I also organized myself a little better. I keep a daily planner. Yesterday, I printed a yearly planner that's big enough to write on each day but small enough to fit into my planner. And I planned. Only those things that I know about that are set in stone-- when my classes as a teacher start, when they end, when weeks are with a lot of grading, the dentist appointment in May where I'll be told that I still need to stop grinding my teeth (did I mention I might be a bit anxious?! :))
I also made a blog list. I need to do some housekeeping and organizing around here. So, bear with me over the next little bit. I'm also going to stop being a lazy blogger. I promise to start proofreading. I'm also going to start using Picasa or Piknik so my pictures are better.
So, it might not be sudden... but, it's coming :)